In the midst of the blur...

Some days I feel like life comes at me at warped speed

....all I can do is hang on

I drive my oldest to school

 2 hours everyday

past farm land

wheat fields

 thru the woods

in snow

 on ice

sunshine and rain.

a Sophomore in High school

it was just yesterday he sat on my lap and I read him Good Night Moon.

Now we have conversations at 70 miles an hour....

My father has been diagnosed with Alzheimer's

3 years in the making I knew something was really off...no one believed me.

He is moving to Montana

next Tuesday.

Never had time for me

 business first

now he will be here

though I no longer know him

Aware of the difficult road ahead

It doesn't matter

change can be good

maybe a new relationship

can be found?

In the midst of the blur

I know it all will be okay.

 because it's all

real

and

I am strong

...and that feels wonderful

I come home

behind the mountains...the sun is waking up

...and Mimi is wondering where I went.

somewhere,

In the midst of the blur...