Little bursts of happiness.

I was thinking it might be lonely with my kids going back to school

after homeschooling for so many years....

Funny to to eat lunch by myself

I enjoy the silence.

Just me and the dogs

I can write my shopping list ...and read the labels at the market

Experiencing how awesome it is to come with all the food on the list.

..not just a few items, since being diverted 20 million times by my kids

That's pretty neat!

I can work on my yarns and wool

all day

It's actually really amazing I feel like a grown up.

My husband calls me 

" the Alchemist "

 thesaurus definition:

wizard

( love that)

 Color wizardry

 I have been with my children every day for 17 years.

Good Grief.

sleepless nights

breast feeding

  changing dirty diapers

no more nappers to tip toe around

Hi who are you again?

me?

Oh yeah, I am Camilla...I vaguely remember.

My children gave me such a gift

 a sense of freedom and letting go

I could live my life free of makeup,

hair in clump on top of my head attached with a grocery rubber band if need be

eat "peanutbutterjellies ' alfresco

in the sand box in the park.

who doesn't love that?

I was in the moment with my kids...I couldn't care less.

However

almost 2 decades later it feels good to get acquainted with

 me again.

 toute seule

A sense of freedom letting go of them.

Be in my own space

not always bumping into someone in the kitchen.

I can listen to The Smiths

  find the good old "hairbrush microphone"

and sing along breaking the sound barrier- if I so wish.

girlfriend in a coma....

sometimes I forget.

I don't want to forget

 who I was

 who I am.

Amazing to think a thought

without interruption.

All I need is a moment.

and little burst of happiness occur

***

...and then my children come barreling thru the door after school

and life is good

 really good.

I missed them.

more bursts of happiness.