This is Julian
and he is teaching me how to rip my hair out.
Parenting teens
and
learning to let go
is
easy and blisfull.
Not so much.
Why does no one tell you how hard it is?
I question that.
You find volumes of parenting books
from baby to middle school
at the library
but then it just all seems to drop into the deep dark abyss of the unknown
zip.
No field guide for teens.
The oldest and the youngest
it's as if it was yesterday Julian was that little...
The minute I layed eyes on him
was indescribable
pure love
From sitting on my lap reading books
singing his heart out in the back seat the old Volvo
to " Raffi "
Loving his woobie
playing with legos
hide and seek
and
super hero
He is finding his way...
fast paced
loud
high energy
friends
texting
soccer
music
iPod
skiing
and lets not forget...chicks.
Summer swim lessons in this pool.
Now a lifeguard
here he is teaching the youngest to swim...
Words can not express how proud I am of him
how much he has changed my life
how wonderful, yet challenging it is to be his parent
and the unconditional love I have for him.
He has such a sense of humor
he so knows how to crack me up!
His dedication
talent
and passion for soccer
- it's crazy amazing to watch him play.
I realize how easy the "toddler" days were
Dealing with a tantrum in isle 5 at Grand Union supermarket
(scooping him up and leaving the store)
seemed like a breeze
Today it is much of same
just more at a
Voltron Force
One minute
I'm amazing
the next minute
I'm annoying
This kid drives me crazy!
But that all seems to cancel out out
when he gives me hug and says he loves me...
unprompted
and
for no apparent reason.
Within minutes it is all forgotten like nothing happend.
Bizarre.
Loves his brother
best of friends
worst of friends
Jules...
I am whipped.
You are wonderfully amazing
fabulous
growing up at warped speed
and
exhausting
...and you might need a snickers bar by now.
All I can do is be there for you.
You have my love
and my heart.
....but then again, you already knew that.
I love you
you will always be my super hero
***
It kills you to see them grow up.
But I guess it would kill you quicker if they didn't.
~Barbara Kingsolver, Animal Dreams