Creative Courage

 When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl
 



This is what describes my past year the most...change.

Many things in my life happened last year that really took me off guard "unexpectedly" -too many to list, although tough to deal with and some pretty hard to swallow.... hence I lost myself.

 

For over a decade I have amerced myself in fiber, from custom knitting, knitting teacher, creating children's sweaters from recycled sweaters, spinning art yarn, dyeing yarn etc.

 I saw it all coming to an end.

Like Forrest Gump ...after running across the US so many times ...one day he was just finished.
 

I was finished
 

 Done with wool fiber...the pain of spinning and knitting made it also a pretty easy decision.
 

 Home schooling came to a halt last year as well- tough one.
 Something that had been also part of my life for over a decade-

gone.
 

 It was time.

It was wonderful, creative and such a blessing to connect and bond with my children
and give them a safe environment to learn in.
 But it was time for them to move on
 experience other teachers and friends.

Feeling a sense of loss and mourning of what was...
I couldn't seem to go thru that door that life held wide open.

 I really became depressed.
 

Deepak Chopra tells us to be human "beings" and not human "doings"...I get all that, but I feel alive when I create....
so when I get the remark "Why don't you relax?
- well, that is because I am relaxing when I do...create.

 I get stressed out if I don't have projects going on- my brain is working.

Love that!

Searching etsy- websites, books, blogs seeking inspiration.
 Realizing how afraid I was of trying something new-
putting myself out there
...what if I failed?
 

I just needed to take the blinders off and give myself a little time.
 

So lucky me

 

 I came across Stephanie Levy's blog again

  remembered her course that I took last year and how it set me on fire.

I needed to learn- not just do.

That was it.

 

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I recommend her class to anyone out there that might feel like they are in a slump.

 Creative Courage

 

.... that is exactly what I need right now.

A little courage to be creative and try something new- and let other artists inspire me.

 

I am already feeling better.



 

 

 

 

I also missed blogging 

in ways it documents the good things and maybe the not so good things in my life

sort of keeps me a little accountable for my days here on earth and what I do under the Big Sky.

 

Your sweet and positive feedback made me also realize that there is no pressure here-

Thank you!

 

It's just me

This is my little space in the world.

 If it flows.... it flows.

 

If it doesn't ?

I guess it just doesn't.

 

 

I am learning to embrace change.

Change is good.

I can't knit any more...

but I have 2 amazing horses and have taken up dressage that I thought I would never do again- and now actually have the time for it since I am not homeschooling.

 Funny how things work out...if you just let them.

Having an open heart.

 

 

 

 

I no longer feel like I am taking this old dusty road to no where.

Same old same old.

I am not who I was.

 

Exciting to make this a year of learning

 exploring new things & new mediums.

Something I haven't done for well...a decade

- it's time!

 

 

 

 

Good-bye 2012

Hello 2013

 

~ I am to ready to bloom ~